I feel unusually exhausted today, probably from the year long burdens on my shoulders having accumulated, preparing to be released for the first day of the new year. 2010, you were a great year to me. Now here’s to a 2011 that’s even better!
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.”—
“I know you see me
Like some wide-eyed dreamer
That just rolled in
Off a dusty Midwest bus
Yeah on the outside,
I look fragile,
But on the inside is something you can’t crush
‘Cause I’m country strong,
Hard to break,
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me and I’ll fall,
But I won’t stay down long ‘cause I’m country strong”—"Country Strong" - Gwyneth Paltrow
“With young women, it’s about teaching the difference between the desire to be desired and desire itself. (I’ll deal with young men in another post.) It only takes a girl a few seconds to realize what someone else may want from her sexually. It often takes her much longer to figure out what she really wants, to discern the pleasure she gets from bringing pleasure to another from the pleasure she wants for herself. And once she’s figured that out, it’s vital to work to create a culture where she can articulate that want without shame. That’s part and parcel of what it means to stand up for sexuality — and stand against sexualization.”—http://jezebel.com/5686773/the-problem-with-being-sexy-but-not-sexual (via angstmuffin)
“Insecurities limit many of our choices.”—It’s unbelievable how true for me this quote is and how easily it can be applied to so many different aspects of my life. I love how simply this idea is worded and how perfectly it sums up what I fear about having the insecurities I have.
“I don’t know you and you don’t know me
Let it go, let it go
I don’t know you and you don’t know me
Let it go, let it go
I cannot see what you cannot show
And I cannot be where you will not go
Let me go, let me go
Oh yeah”—"I Am Young" - Coconut Records
“Lately I’ve been wishing I had one desire,
Something that would make me never want another,
Something that would make it so that nothing mattered
All would be clearer then”—"A Perfect Sonnet" - Bright Eyes
“But my heart,
It don’t beat,
It don’t beat the way it used to
And my eyes,
They don’t see you no more
And my lips,
They don’t kiss,
They don’t kiss the way they used to
And my eyes don’t recognize you no more”—For Reasons Unknown - The Killers
“Sunday mornings. Even when I was a chid, Sunday morning was the barometer for how the week was going to go. You can learn a lot about yourself with what you’re doing and who you’re with on a Sunday, I think. I’m really, really lucky. I’ve got a lot of love in my life. I’ve got great friends. I have two great kids whom I make pancakes for every Sunday. I’m very blessed.”—
Reese Witherspoon (when asked by Glamour magazine what she loves most about her life right now)
So, I’m not going home tomorrow like I thought I would. I’m going to California instead. I got a call this morning from my mom telling me that my great-grandmother isn’t doing well and that they think she’ll pass away soon. She asked me if I could fly to Cali, instead of flying home, and meet up with her and my sister to see my great grandma. I said of course and so now that’s what I’m doing. It’s so weird. When I say things happen last minute in my family, I really mean it. I guess I’ll be going home to Texas on Monday instead. And though I’m sad that my great grandma isn’t in good shape and that she may be leaving me soon, I’m more thankful that I actually get to see her before anything happens. Family is, after all, the most important thing in my life and it means a lot to me to be able to be with her during this time even if it’s only for a little while.
I just said bye to my roommate. It’s amazing how attached I’ve become to a person I’ve only known for a year. Everything about your relationship with someone changes once you live with that person. A month without her will be strange.
“Quite honestly, my objection to rape jokes is not even because I particularly find the jokes personally triggering anymore; I generally just find them pathetic and inexplicable. And while I’m bothered by the fact that the jokes normalize and effectively minimize the severity of rape and thus perpetuate the rape culture, I’m more bothered by the thought of a woman who’s recently been raped, who’s just experienced what may be the worst thing that will ever happen to her, and goes to the site of her favorite webcomic, or turns on the telly, or goes to the cinema, or a comedy club, to have a much-needed laugh—only to see that horrible, life-changing thing used as the butt of a joke. I don’t understand—and I don’t believe I ever will—why anyone wants to be the person who sends that shiver down her spine, who makes her eyes burn hot with tears at an unwanted memory while everyone else laughs and laughs.”—
The summer before last, when I was India, I created my own personal bucket list. It was a lengthy list of things I wanted to accomplish before I died. I was outside, sitting by a pool, and a scintillating sun was pouring down over me, giving me the energy to finally do something different. It was the perfect setting to get in tune with my inner aspirations and deepest desires. I remember folding that piece of paper at the end of the day and putting it somewhere in a suitcase or bag of some sort. I thought I remember coming home in putting it in my special hat box - a box I have under my bed meant of course for only special things. I haven’t looked at that list in a while and I now wonder if it’s even there. I wonder if I accidentally threw the list away. Nevertheless, when I go home this month, I’ll look for it and if it’s not there, then I’ll create a new one. And perhaps I will create two. One list will be comprised of what I would like to do before I graduate from college. The other list would take into consideration the entire course of my life and what I can accomplish during that time. I don’t concern myself with whether or not some of my goals on that list are realistic because I will make them real. I remember my list was long. I want it to be even longer. Good thing I’m going to live to be a 101. I’ll have ample time to get it all done.
I love how you posted that MJ and Akon duet. Normally I don't like love songs but for some reason I really like that one and it made my day seeing it come across my dashboard haha
Sorry to bother you with this, but I thought I should let you know ^_^ lol
I’m glad I got to brighten your brighten your day! :D The great thing about that song is that it may not have to be a love song at all but just a song to get you through the day - a song about someone being there for you when you need it most.